Crushed.

[shilala]

Originally Posted by Wolfgang

Byt I feel like my fingers were still in the door when it slammed shut. I'm doing my best to "move on" but she was there for me through a lot of the medical adventures I Went through. She was a major support system for me and it seems as though my legs were kicked out from under me.

I can help with this one...
I divorced my wife five or six years ago over a long string of nasty sh!t she did. At first, I thought the things she did were about me. That she was trying to hurt me or get back at me for something she perceived I did.
It turned out that what she did was all about her, and I was just collateral damage. I just got caught in the propwash of her actions and it wasn't her intent. It wasn't about me, and that was a big relief.
I was married for a long time, we had a lot invested in our marriage, two kids, lots of stuff, and it took a good amount of time to get over it all. Mainly for her to get her head straightened out and start working in a good direction.
Now, we have a pretty decent working relationship. I still don't like her, but I didn't like her for lots of years when we were married, either.
What we did get from the divorce is a chance for both of us to be happy, and for us to live our lives out the way we want.
It's worked out fabulously, and I've fallen in love with a woman in a way I never thought possible.
It's already working out for you, too. Be patient. Enjoy life. Keep doing the next right thing and you'll be rewarded, guaranteed.
This verse helped me a lot, even though it's out of context, I've found it applies equally to love...
Luke 6:38 (New King James Version)

38 Give, and it will be given to you: good measure, pressed down, shaken together, and running over will be put into your bosom. For with the same measure that you use, it will be measured back to you.”