Frustrated, long post on bodily pain - thanks :)

I hope you'll all forgive my tone if this post sounds rude or irritable or whiny. I'm in a lot of pain right now, with my back and my neck especially.

The doctor has me on 2mg of generic Valium, a generic antidepressant, and Prilosec. Muscle spasms, mood, and something causing acid reflux in general.

I see a chiropractor thrice a week, but going back to school, it's not gonna last, and I know I won't pursue it. Plus, I have cerebral palsy (spastic diplegia somewhat), so walking is just...sigh lol I know I should do it, but I just don't feel like it, and there's nothing around here to see when I do move.

I'm so P'Od right now, I'd probably hit the first person I saw, just...meh.

Anyway, folks question. What's a good neck massage device, preferably one that's not on batteries, I can use on myself? Or maybe rechargeable ones if batteries are necessary? Something good that I can either buy and know will work, or get a script for maybe from someone?

It's not convenient for me to make appointments every time something goes wrong, I'm just so annoyed with my medical conditions right now, although, I know most of my doctors, if not all, are trying and willing to help me, and things always take time.

Exercise is not my friend. My back hurts, I'm sad, my neck hurts, I'm sad. When I get my feet checked out (I walk on my toes, my heels are so tight) I just know walking won't be such a burden, but my life is bad in general. Everyone's is, in a way, but you know what I mean.

I'm only 20. I know kids with worse, but it's still awful, ya know?

Feel free to post here or PM if anyone cares to chime in. At the moment, I just don't care, maybe my problems can help someone else if they're in a public forum thanks for listening to me complain.

Kegan