Cigars after all these years

[bruceolee]

I went to church this morning and came home and it's made me think about what i'm thankful for. i came home and smoked a bundle cigar i recently purchased a Famous 6000 Nicaraguan robusto and after that a 2009 RyJ Conornita en cedro. i smoked the latter until my fingers burned. I'm also a little philosophical about cigars and how they help me.

Back in 2004 i was diagnosed with necrotizing pancreatitis and was given a less than 10% chance to live. By Gods grace i lived through it but not without permanently damaging many internal organs. My pancreas burst which leaked pancreatic (digestive) enzymes all over my insides. After many years of my body compensating enough for me to return back to work my health has caught up with me

In 2018 i was diagnosed with a subphrenic abscess and was told once again that i was in grave condition. By Gods grace i lived. Then, it happened again.......two more times. that left me in a disabled condition. I have no feeling below my knees (I've posted some of this on BOTL.org) So, i walk with a cane and have to be VERY careful where i walk. I broke my left Humerus with a nice spiral fracture and had the largest fixator placed in me because of my new found ability to fall. I also take 26 pills a day including powerful narcotics for the daily pain i live with.

I say all of this to say i'm thankful for finally being healthy enough to enjoy cigars once again. I've found i need less pain medication on days i smoke a cigar or two. They also help me in reflecting on how blessed I've been to still be here. I was also told at one point they thought they had found mets in my liver but turned into non-cancerous tumors on my liver. I am truly blessed and thankful

Brothers and sisters of the leaf no matter how bad you may think things can get the one thing i've leaned is there's always someone out there worse off than you. Let's not forget to reach down to the less fortunate this thanksgiving and pick someone up. I remember when i was in Miami's jackson memorials ICU bleeding out internally that there was a lady across from me who happened to live in my county so we befriended that ladies husband and he'd come to me to talk to be because his wife was sedated and couldn't talk. I remember even in my sad state that someone always has it worse and in my broken condition found myself praying for her. I hope you all have a blessed thanksgiving this year and hope next year will be your banner year! I don't have much of a point in this post so please read it in the spirit it's being written. I'm just grateful to be alive