today it all hit me...

Devan, sorry for your injury but most imortantly, thank you for the time you have given to this country. A path has been set in front of you that only you can decide what is best for you. All the advice given here soo far is great and comes from people that have seen and exerienced more than many ever will. Take your time and do what will make you happy. Good luck and you have everyone here to turn to for advice anytime you need it.