I laughed my ass off at "Hey, I wasn't ready!!!"
"Lord, take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life."
People see what we do, no matter our difficulties. His strength is our Love. It's hard to put ourselves aside when our life is so hard. That's why it's so God-blessed meaningful.
It's our choice every day if we want to show failure or defeat, even when we're defeated.