Originally Posted by ApexAZ (Post 1562556)

Happy Birthday, Corey! Aren't you about to celebrate 10 years of sobriety soon too?

Originally Posted by CoreyD (Post 1562663)

Thank you all for the bday wishes. I had 1 of them bdays that kinda makes you feel alone except for a mom that really loves me, Internet and real friends that fill me with happiness from knowing them . Trying to boost me glummy mood all day these Ca BDAY greetings have kept me feeling a little good feeling all day.
February is a great month from my sobriety anni to my bday but for some reasons undisclosed, winter is rough for me especially around this month. Time heals. As for wonderment on cigars I had a busy work night last night and slept today made a steak , strawberry shrimp salad and went to work. I will enjoy a cigar Friday am because I don't work again till Tuesday so I can enjoy a whole cigar and celebrate.But each year lately I feel i'm not here for me and I somehow don't have that celebration feeling for things I should Celebrate. I spent the AM before bed talking to my mom and thanking her for my birth and the unconditional love even in the rough times. and reflecting on the complicated birth and after birth where she almost lost her youngest boy helping her heal.
I did however enjoy several pipes in my travels.

That was on the 7th and I celebrated it with the rev on the 6th making it a great pre anni day , I can't even put into words how great that day was, Then on the 7th celebrated it with people from around the recovery tables and stopping at the local B&M for a smoke and meeting new BOTL from diff areas in the US. Then the 8th the mentors in my field of work and people that first helped me on my walk of recovery contacted me and it was great...